Happy, yes! Noticeably happier to others, not just to myself. I find myself smiling, engaging more,. It is still a daily reminder that I can choose how I want to see the world that day.
Birthday weekend is a great way to look at things. At first I didn't want to deal with the bother, to plan and organize and be put out , on the day that was supposed to be for me. I have a very hard time letting go of control and letting others plan and do for me. Couldn't just say to my sister, COME and BE WITH ME. I made her nuts with all my wishy washy decisions, I was looking at it more from the lines of not wanting be a bother. I say I don't want anyone to make a fuss, want a fuss , want it to be about me, don't want it to be a big deal...well guess what, I cant have it both ways!
Thankfully the family knows this about me and surrounded me with love anyways!
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